affirmative!...right?..........right?!?!

I find myself debating on whether or not to delete my facebook account and blog at times. It's like a World Wide Whine for help...but I realized that a lot of my negative perceptions on social networking is just me projecting.

People like me need to be weary of the internet, because it opens up doors for those of us who seek affirmation. Social net sites become outlets, where we can passively scream/express. It's like you can slip in just a little bit of thought in a sea of meta friends (who you cannot even keep track of)... and you find yourself waiting for one witty comment or even a little, blue thumbs up of approval.

Recently I've been thinking about the core of why I do the things I do (thanks to Pastor peter and his latest sermon). Strong design always begins at the core concept. My favorite part of the design process isn't the beginning or end result...it's in the middle... that "aha" moment where an idea is born. It's like your on cloud 9 and there's this snowball effect of excitement and ideas begin to stem from that original moment of clarity.

I've been finding myself frustrated at the fact that I haven't found opportunities to reach those "aha" moments. The work environment has been challenging and almost seems to debilitate creativity...but I'm starting to realize that my love for design does not stem from those inspirational moments of idea. God's design/purpose is far more valuable...and my tiny, inspirations are shallow in the scheme of things. This was when I realized that it's worth releasing my clenched fists in situations where crude design takes precedence over coherent design.